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Dear PIAT,

 In theater, or public speaking, it is best to move past complex feelings.  In the case of whether or not I am offending the arc people, I have been too nervous to know the answer or even how to move past.  These feelings were complicated by a strong uncertainty about the existence of Octopus and a possibly negative interaction in forcing the arc people to cooperate.  It has gotten a lot more fun at Facebook.  Facebook has been a really assistive mechanism for soothing the strain on me to have positive interraction. 

A very serious problem has been my feeling that I am hiding from someone.  This matter is directly connected to the negative side of the  timing issue  I have with Amanda who hasn't seen Octopus and has kids.  I can't breathe for some reason at this level, as if if trying to see the arc Amanda as the real takes me out of body into a very small world where there aren't oxygen atoms big enough for a real person.  No wonder I feel COPD. 

Pressuring my self to clear the phone every Friday is not really the reason I feel so much hell at this blog right now, it is the squeeze in my energy.  If we decide to blend it out over the next year, it might be a lot easier to breathe.  I don't know if it is better to leave the planet in a mental condition closer to one of someone who had left soon after 11 November, 2002.  Duty directs me on this, and all matters.

I feel a lot better than I did when I wrote the previous post, which I lost.  I trust a little more that I can and willl recover it.  Writing this blog post is difficult, in the same sense that working out is difficult.  Previously, I did not really understand that it would get easier with repitition.  Just like the walking, it will get easier with repitition.  I want to make an entry a day, even if I am still here after the 11th of November.  I realize it would be more like most days, not every day.

Just a check on Http://www.UniversalPeaceNetwork.Org. I am kind of sure that this address is on the Internet?  No!  I am really sure! I am relaxing dense areas, and stiff areas, and pudgy areas that can't seem to relax enough to clear the density away.  I believe Http://www.EarthPeaceNetwork.Org is also real and on the Internet.  I am no longer living in the belief that the world with these two sites on the Internet is small and inside my head.  I am sure the two sites mentioned in this paragraph are directly associated to real people, whereas "The Department of Homeland Security",  http://www.dhs.gov/index.shtm, is not and has never been.

It seems absurd that I would not go and see the Universal Peace Network HQ, at the Professional Building.  I am not sure it's there.  I thought it was at a grocery store the first few weeks.  I would love it if that building was suited for the HQ.  I thought it was a sensitive matter transporting my self to my planet to off load the arc people who would be moved.  However, it doesn't really work "that way".  That fear is based in a concern for the emotional sensitivity of my arc self.  The good news is, I am sure I am the only person whose arc person lives inside their body. 

I am kind of sleepy right now, I could catch a nap, or I could push it today.  It looks like the "On the 8's" could endure for at least the duration of Light Emerging.  I am happy about that.  It is clear that I have a ways to go to clear up the tension and pain and it could go one of four ways with Imom.  I just need to keep exercising so I can feel healthier, that will get me to the telephone.

Love and light,

Christopher B. Durbin