Dear PIAT,

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Have no attachment to any results, for there may be none you can measure. You have just made a valuable and important contribution to all life.

My blog has so many views that it appears to have none.

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I seem to have a blockage to my thinking that makes everything I think I know at one point of the day relatively meaningless at some other point in the day. I know this seems like cognitive dissonance, it is a miserable feeling. However, I still don't think being divided by two thoughts is always cognitive dissonance. It is probably smarter not to think that way.

I feel bad about sending Imagimom to that stinky place.  It does smell bad in there.  However, she was trying to move around too much and that is why she kept falling down.  Besides the fact that she has a cast on one foot and a brace on the opposite leg's knee.  I don't remember what real hospitals used to do, but I don't think a person who has two broken legs should be let out of the hospital until it is possible for them to walk. 

I don't know if that she is at another "higher level" of this house, or in the movie of my mind, as it were.  I don't know if it's smarter to leave the planet or if it is smarter to wait it out until November.  Either way, the tension felt from the pressure to relax is going to have to break.  I don't believe it ever will.  What it is like is not having the energy to clean your room and not being able to find it.  I know the energy usually appears at some point but in the interim I am under an enormous amount of pressure. 

Right now I am under the pressure, but it is decreasing daily.  It is a lot better in the pinch than before.  I guess you could call it a void.  In the pressure point, I just want the phone to clear up so I can call and get out of here.  When there is no pressure, I feel like staying here until the 11th, or 18th or November.  I just don't feel right about being in someones house when they aren't there. 

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The following is the TIAW for 01 SEP 09.  Amanda was here and was very assistive.  It seems like a few more would be necessary to clear up things properly to leave, but I am not sure right now at all.  I want to leave but I will stay if it is required.




Love and Light,
Christopher B. Durbin
Universal Peace Network

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