It looks like it might be better to leave Universal Father, OctopusN, UniversalPeaceNetworkN, and the UPN CASINO, as they are and let the real Internet help me move them around until they are the way I think they should be.  So, I posted this picture here. 

I keep getting "frozen".  Part of the process of moving the arc Internet away from this computer is seeing that the areas of density are decreasing and that they are the very things which cause me to see the arc Internet instead of the real Internet.  I had been feeling that I was being whiny, and that was embarrassing me.  I also felt that the things which represented blockages in my chi would never be released without Tai Chi and that was a big problem.  Nevertheless, I do believe I do not have inhibitors to the free flowing energy of my chi and those areas are being cleared away with the direction of mental energy.  Though, I would feel better if I did Tai Chi every day.

I can't think of anything good to write, but I will push on anyway.  It is not easy.  Nevertheless, I sit here, hoping the energy will get better and I will write something profound, then I realize masterful writing isn't really the goal, but effective writing which reassures my poor little broken hearted self that I am making a strong and intelligent effort to clear away the arc Internet, is the goal.  "Oh Chris, the Octopus is real and the arc Internet really, really isn't.  The arc Internet will clear away, one of these days." 

I think the key to the energy at this paragraph is the fact that the excess of energy coming out of the terminal could be made to assist people to age and die or it could be made to assist people to have light hearts and happiness in eternajevity.  It could be neutralized too.  It probably isn't supposed to feel like it projects in to the room so much, but it is kind of cool.  I think I am working on containing that, it is a permeating feeling that seems to be an evolved fear of radiation combined with some sort of photosensitivity of the skin.  Refer to the letter I wrote to the arc Stacey Worth. 

I see a convergence in my behavior which is the contrast between a reasonable amount of self confidence and extreme paranoia.  On the cycle I am sure the Octopus is real and I am doing a good job, I feel fine.  The cycle I am not sure the Octopus is real, is decreasing, I wish it were gone, but I just have to wait. 

I am not going to post the picture of the arc Amanda from MySpace here.  I am doing okay with that.  I believe I actually would remove any reference to Amanda from the Internet, if I wasn't "really" sure  the Octopus is real and the arc is clearing up.  It is a matter of faith and the application of pressure to the right areas.  It is important to clear the imaginary people off of the Internet.  I am sure the picture is a false representation of a real person who does not have any kids.  I am sure the real person represented by the picture was actually viewing my initial transmission/broadcast, from the Family Pet Hospital, on 11 November, 2002. 


At this time, I do not see any potential for problems surrounding the situation described in the previous paragraph.  I see steady improvement and I believe the arc Internet will be cleared away, so I can go on vacation, soon. 

Love and Light,
Christopher B. Durbin
Universal Peace Network