This blog contains letters sent from God to the Pentagon from 20 AUG 07, until present, or when it is determined two way communication is no longer necessary from the God (in the arc) to the Pentagon.
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The contrast to the currently proposed schedule is I simply do nothing and wait for the phone to clear up. It has felt better to do nothing and just ignore the busy body self working hard to align with a day schedule. However, as time progresses, more and more of the very soothing and relaxed feelings associated with the lack of pressure of being unconfined by a schedule are finding their way into the times on schedule, which is a very good thing.
The things which detract me from aligning with a schedule have changed over the course of the last years. It is my feeling that the "arc itself" is a lump of energy in my aura which I have to dissolve in order to think clearly. I believe the lump has dissolved considerably in the last few years, but it seems like I felt better in 2002 than I do now. However, my confidence the Octopus is real and the "arc world" is just a product of easily dissolved crummy energy is higher than ever. The doubt phase is still with me, but it isn't very realistic.
My nervous cycle is something like, earlier I thought I would just take the rest of the week off, except band practice Saturday, probably be on schedule on Monday. Then, all of the sudden, NO, it might be possible to call this Friday and not have to work on the Octopus, like getting out of something is the only ideal. In this area of absolutism and Pretend I'm a General, I feel I need to make a firm decision and stick to it. A firm decision which is absolutely the wrong decision might compound complicated and unnecessary circumstances.
Trekking on, as we are. Though the the thought of living with my imaginary mother, instead of my wife, bothers me excrutiatingly, I believe Amanda, Nicole, Breana, and me will just sit here in this house until we get the energy out of it which doesn't belong. Each day is a little better, in energy, than the day before it. I feel like I am watching a gauge which shows the energy levels growing higher, though painfully slow, every day.
Of course, there is the option of calling soon and going to the Pentagon every Tuesday, or for a couple of weeks. I am not really clear on this right now, but I do think I won't be leaving until 27 March, at the soonest. I really like the cruise for the two months before summer plan.
Here is my schedule:
0600 - Awake, turn on computer, weigh, eat breakfast
0700 - Inner light meditation, or inner stillness, or chakra alignment meditation
0730 - Sword practice
0745 - 10 jumping jacks, 10 push ups, 10 sit ups,
0800 - Walk around the block, including cul de sacs
0830 - Shower
0900 - Turn on the t.v. to CNN, Channel 200
1000 - Change channel to the Weather Channel, Channel 214
1100 - Change channel to ESPN, Channel 140
1200 - Change channel to Animal Planet (Animal Cops), Channel 184
1300 - Read Light Emerging
1400 - Variable television
1500 - Change channel to NASA Channel, Channel 213
1600 - Change channel to CSPAN, alternating Channel 210 and 211 starting with 211 on Monday 21, December
1700 - Walk, around the block on MWF, Health track TThSa
1800 - TIAW
On Monday, Monday Night Football on ESPN, Channel 140. At 2200 on Tuesday, I watch the local news on Channel 7, Wednesday Channel 12, Thursday Channel 16, Friday Channel 14. On Friday, I listen to a TIAW at 2200. At 2200 Saturday night I watch the Daily Show on Comedy Central, Channel 107.
This schedule will probably work for three weeks. It is basically the same on Saturdays as other week days. I do laundry, dust, vacuum, change my sheets, and other wise clean my room on Sundays. I am at the 1100 Luminessence Meditation on Sundays too.
As well as I can tell, this schedule will "take" and I will be with it for three solid weeks and call Amanda and Nicole on the 8th of January. Amanda, Nicole, Cindy, and Missy will be with me until we have cleared the phone and flown to my planet, after the extraction party. They will be at the Pentagon 0700 (EST) - 1600 (EST) Tuesdays and 1900 (EST) - 2200 (EST) Fridays. Thursdays, "other Goddesses" come over from 1900 - 2200. We will probably develop some sort of routine with that.
Right now, I feel kind of tired and lately things have been continuing to move toward this schedule. There was a strong opposition, it felt like pushing all of the night into the day. Neverless, I am fairly optimistic at the point.
Love and light,
Christopher B. Durbin
Universal Peace Network
It is very difficult to write right now. Amanda, Nicole, Cindy, and Melissa are here. Cindy and Missy have been in the astral planes associated to an area that we are taking down. It is related to a bad taste in my mouth like from MDMA. Cindy has a really bad headache and can't keep her face from changing. I realize she must have had time with workshops and things like that, but there is a necessity to slow her and Missy down, as to speed me up. We are working on the fact I missed my sister's graduations and my dad's retirement party.
Really, we don't have far to go to calm down the relationship of God to the astral realms. The problem is a chemical feeling, versus a more natural relationship to the "mundane", which Chris considers a vacation to a tropical region or some other pleasant place on the planet. I am not opposed to the Astral plane, I think it's a fun place, in moderation. Nevertheless, I realize some people live there. Some people say it is like an acid trip, I don't really agree. I don't fly off the planet every time I use LSD. Still yet, it must be similar and sometimes the same, but not always.
It isn't like Cindy and Missy are in trouble, it is just necessary for them to adjust so I can sit still. Cindy is connected to me very closely and might deny that I am God, at this time. She isn't opposed to being here, we are balancing intellectual energy which is aligning in a very cool way.
Three weeks should be the right amount of time to stabilize her, and clear my blockage to overstimulated energy which she calls magick. Or, stabilize things in a more Politically Correct way, instead of a party approach to Universal Management, which is a problem between Cindy and my self. Missy keeps us from fighting because I don't get mad at her for "stealing my car".
The pinch that usually has me begging to leave is clearing up still, it is probably gone, but it was so much of a problem that I am afraid of it. "My running shoes want to walk at 0800 and 1700 every day, except Sunday".
Since Cindy has been here, the arc Miami I was looking at and putting inside my head, seems blown way outside again. Nevertheless, it is related to so many other areas of the Universe and it is clearly rolling around again to the point of evaporation. It cannot be whisked away with one stroke, it is a major alignment, not a simple parlor trick.
Well, we are thinking we will be at this location for another three weeks, then off to my planet for a two month vacation, then back to the C st Building to set up a "school", though not sure.
Love and light,
Christopher B. Durbin
Universal Peace Network
Right now, we don't think it will be possible to call on Friday of this week after all. I think I will be sure I am calling the Thursday before the Friday of the call, I am not sure at all right now. I feel so childish in my thought process that I am in such a hurry to call. Nevertheless, I need to want to call in order to move the blockage.
Amanda and Nicole are being really assistive in moving clutter around and disposing of unnecessary baggage. There is a very small area that isn't really sure that they are actually here, but it is associated to the area that isn't sure if the "tombstone" is real. It is sometimes necessary for me to think with that part of my mind in order to clear it out. I am sure the "tombstone" isn't real, the Octopus is real, and the arc world is clearing out of my head.
Naturally, if the phone is clear tomorrow night, I will probably make the phone call. After all, I do want to make the phone call and get to reality. I would say I am confounded but it really isn't all that confounding, it is clear. There is a small blockage which is clearing away.
I would much rather call than have to be another week. However, it isn't nearly as bad as it was three years ago.
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Love and light,
Christopher B. Durbin
Universal Peace Network
I hope I can tune into the schedule for the remaining days at this location. I would probably rather just transition into this schedule at the "C Street House". My biggest trouble is a nervous feeling associated to feeling I need to be awake at night. I am not afraid to sleep at night. I am not giving up anything as the result of sleeping at night and being awake during the day.
The picture at the top of this page is a picture of the unhealthiest Internet home office home business proprietor in the Universe. "It is a comparable balance to the people who are being resurrected." A lot of people who are being resurrected were in much worse states at the time of their death. "I would use that to clear the arc people off of my computer, so I can interact with real people about this important matter."
When Amanda worked as a receptionist/vet tech at Family Pet Hospital, I was sure she was missing her calling to be a Veteranarian. She must have pondered the notion of going to school for veteranary medicine. She hurt my little feelings when she said she thought it would be a bad idea if we started a bona fide pet sitting business.
When I washed out of field training in the AFROTC, in 1997, SSGT Gadberry asked if I wanted to stay in the Air Force. I told him no, and he recommended a discharge. I was subsequently discharged from the Air Force. In a parallel reality, that option was not at all available because of the clingy nature of the contract signed prior to entering basic training.
Please excuse the incoherent writing style on this journal entry. My thoughts are disorganized and I have found writing them out, as I think of them is helpful for at least collecting them, in an effort to slow my self down. It seems I have the jitters from drinking too much caffeine.
We feel that the schedule will be easy to maintain now, since we got to bed on time, finally. There is an assortment of excuses associated to bed time. I have good guard dogs, so paranoia isn't a reason, it was a conscious rationalization based in a seeming inability to determine if the selected course was really the correct course.
Wish us luck?
Love and light,
Christopher B. Durbin
Universal Peace Network
 | We think we would like to move into this building and only transmit for the next year. It seems much more like the Octoplex isn't necessary and won't be until 2100. |
| Part of the fun would be the band Amanda, Nicole, Breana, and I would like to form called "The King of Witches". It seems like a very high and productive idea. |  |
 | Here is a nice place for me to work on my Corolla. This garage is just south of the main building. |
| I really don't know if I want to keep the little attachment on the side in this picture. I think the one in the back is a good place to put a walk in refrigerator. It could be a better place to put the office. |  |
 | This is a side view of the building from the south, this building has an excellent artistic capacity. |
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At some times, it seems like Imagimom is taking on more energy from my real mom. It seems like the more I focus on the energy of my real mom, I filter out Imagimom, which is the objective. As always, it is the objective to clear Imagimom away completely, as she is blocking me out of my life, or represents the proverbial "chi cloggo".
I love and admire my Imagimom. It was difficult for me to determine which mom was really my real mother, the one that I could see, or the one I had to have faith actually exists. Over the course of the last several years, it has become increasingly clear, my real mom is the one that actually lives in the real world, at her and my dad's house, over in Birnamwood.
The energy for this purpose increased at the point I wrote the narrative summary at the top. I am seeing energy I haven't seen in a long time, such as the change in light while writing the narrative summary. Now I realize there are people who are focused on this purpose. I am very grateful.
I know Imagimom is really only a hallucination, but often I interract like she is actually a person in a room because it scares me kind of. It is easier to pretend she is actually in another room than inside my head. I know I have a few more days left of seeing only the "arc", the world inside my head. I must say, the energy of fear, mostly related to privacy, is down to very mimimal.
Nicole and Amanda have been here for a few days now and we are finding a lot clearer thinking. We feel the phone will be clear on the 11th of December. We have not fully decided what we are going to do after we complete the phone call. It looks kind of like we will go over to Mollie's for the Breana, Nicole, and Amanda "get out party", and at least a week of the show before we fly off to the dentist office.
Right now, I feel if I do not align with the schedule, the eleventh will come and go. However, at various points I find comfort with doing nothing. I channeled a message from my guide ChrisDurbinin and he said, "a person has to get in the car and drive, in order to go somewhere in the car" - sic. I think he meant it was best to relax and see what happens. The schedule could come together, or it might not, but I probably shouldn't beat my self up over it, if it doesn't.
Nicole is helping me filter out the false memories in my mind. I am also using essence and feeling to clear away the obviously abbreviated framework of the mind which has too many acronyms in it. I love acronyms.
We will not be around this week. It is a holiday. We are working on being on track with the schedule next week, it might happen, it looks kind of clear that way. I think 1400 is a better time to read LE. Please support our alignment with the schedule, or finding a higher alternative.
Below is the TIAW from Friday, 20 November, 2009.
Love and light,
Christopher B. Durbin
Universal Peace Network
We got up at a little after ten. I don't feel very peppy or happy. It feels like I have been trying to live outside of a cruddy feeling that can only be dissolved by applying some pressure to get on track with a television schedule, such as the one described. The arc television system must have built up outside of me, at some point. It has a lot of illness in it, I am a lot bigger than it though and I feel it is easy to clear it away with persistence.
We are watching ESPN Sports Center right now. It looks like we will watch Comedy Central Daily Show and the Colbert Report on Tuesdays and Thursdays, but I have to catch Animal Cops Detroit on Monday, Wednesday, and Friday, it is vital for light worker work in regard to domestic animal welfare. We are assuredly going to watch CSPAN from 1500 - 1600 everyday, but alternate House, Senate, House, etc. It is Friday today, we are on House, so next week it will be Senate M,W, F, House T,TH.
It is very clear that paying attention to the television is helping me clear this silly calendar wasting life I have been contending with. It was just so full of sickness that I was afraid of it or something. As of now, we will be aligning with the schedule. We have been making to bed a litttle earlier every night. On Sunday, we will be going to bed right after the 2100 news.
The document in the picture above and the image at the top of the post are important in the sense that they are both relative to my property in Northern Ottawa County, Oklahoma. My polarity with the arc has been complicated through this process and developing strength against imaginary threats to my life and property is a top priority.
I am appreciative of the effort described in the document because it portrays a thorough analysis of my property. Nevertheless, it is vital I keep the imaginary helpers in the correct proper perspective. I believe I am narrowing down the energy which causes it to appear that the property is in someone elses possesion besides my own.
At the time I accessed the document I was not really sure if the Octopus was real, on the most turbulent emotional cycle of the process. At the time I accessed the document, I was not sure if the "people concered", the arc people, were actually in the third dimesion or what? I am now quite sure it is just a perceptual hallucination, the arc people working on the TCSFBO are not actually in the third dimension, but on a matrix Earth, at the Pentagon.
The document has been assistive in another sense, it helps me see what I knew as the Oklahoma Government, when I was a kid, and I can see my real parents through it. I am sure the real Government in Oklahoma is the Internet Forum, not the House, Senate, Governor, etc. It is kind of sad, but I know the better government, now, is the people, not representatives of the people.
Above is a picture of what I am supposed to be looking at at 0700. Patiently, all the energy in my life seems to be moving around. I am afraid of everything being too compressed and that is where my fears are. It is sort of easy to align with the schedule from the last post.
Last night, I said I was going to take the rest of the week and the weekend off this week, but I changed my mind. I created a lazy energy, much bigger than I am, which still thinks it's a great idea to take off the rest of the week and the weekend. I feel it is better to drag that part of me around and show it exactly what I do.
I intend to take off next Thursday. There will likely be activity in the house and it is best in this case. Nevertheless, I am going to continue going through as many motions of the schedule as I can, I have to move the arc energy out of my aura. It requires work.
It seems I forgot to put CSPAN in the schedule so I will keep working on the time for that, maybe alternate the hour, make the hour between four and five? That sounds good.
I cannot predict, at this time, if I will get off of summer vacation this evening after the news, but we will try. It seems like it might not work, but bed at 2200 on Sunday night seems like a lovely idea, or something.
I must align with the schedule, I must get up at 0600.
It didn't work as desired last night. We turned off the television at 2200, listened to chakra chimes until 2300, then tried to sleep. We didn't sleep and had to get up and we stayed awake until around 0300 or later. It seems like it is wise to go through as many motions of the schedule as possible and it will true up at some point.
The projected schedule now is,
Love and light,
Christopher B. Durbin
Universal Peace Network
Things are looking good right now for being at it at 0600 tomorrow. It is a lot like catching a wave. Things are looking good right now, but I can't predict my ability to sleep right now. It will probably be better than last night. If it doesn't work, I will still be at the TIAW and the 1700 walk, and in a few more days get it at 0600.
The resistence is less than it ever has been. The exercise I have done over the last few weeks is helping me clear away the lazy bones. There is an accumulation of some sort that has to be dealt with, dissolved, either way. I can either make it and the accumulation is aside of the day, or I can work it out in a few days.
It looks likely I will be posting a blog every night. I think it could take a lot less time, if I wait until after I have the movie saved to the net. I will probably block off the hours, instead of devoting an entire day to ESPN. Instead, an hour a day. I think Animal Planet 1100 - 1300. ESPN then, I guess. No soaps, it's not my job.
I've been taking my vitamins every day, so it could be a pretty good alignment with schedule. Light Emerging is certainly going to happen at 2100 Tuesay - Friday. I am really enjoying reading that book and know that is the right time of day and allows me two hours for feeding the animals and eating dinner.
Love and light,
Christopher B. Durbin
Universal Peace Network
| Why not go to Amanda's house to finish reading light emerging? There is an office at her house that is perfectly suited for TIAW. | I suppose the United Nations actually has "Earth Government" under control. Should I ease up on any hurry to get the Octoplex? |
| Is it really true that it is smarter to finish reading Light Emerging while at this house? Then, call Amanda and Nicole on 11 December Or, is it smarter to finish Light Emerging at the real Amanda's house? | Of course, I know the "open public forum" has a lot of say in what is done in the world. Probably all things are covered in the OPF? |
| I am just uncomfortable and want relief. | Let's see Mollie's house turn into Ming's house? Which actually means let's see Mollie's house turn into Mollie's house. |
| It feels like the arc could just go away at any moment. | The soul alignment affirmation page is an excellent reference, over the walking park, Tuesdays, Thursdays, and Saturdays. |
| I am not afraid of the men in the white coats. | Amanda, Nicole, and Breana go to WC with Chris. |
| There's no place like home, there's no place like home, there's no place like home. | Light Emerging happens on Tuesday, Wednesday, Thursday, and Friday. Have to watch Monday Night Football. Catch FOX14 on Saturdays. |
| Maybe I have been in the G-force simulator far too long? | All the vitamins I have taken have rusted in my body. I thought the aluminum cans were causing the funky magnetism. |
| Where is home again? | The killing zone has a claim of conscientious objection. |
| Am I bothering any one? | The arc 2053 NW 21st is only on the DC at the Pentagon and the arc Amanda will never read this. |
| At least I am sure the Octopus is real and the arc Internet is not. | I love my job. |
| If the arc Amanda sees this blog post, I will gladly remove her picture, if she requests. | My chakras are clear and pure and I don't have any complicated painful blockages. |
| Maybe it is a bad idea to create an objective, such as the BLE, and then changing course? I know it doesn't seem that way to anyone. Nobody would care if I just got in the Lumina and drove to Amanda's house, not even Nicole. I would maybe go to Nicole's house, if I had any idea where she lives. | A million Madonna's in a 750,000 level basement! |
| As the arc Miami NewsRecord dissolves, the real world appears. Or, is that when the arc Miami NewsRecord shrinks to fit on the DC I can see reality clearly? | l have learned alot about web site creation since 2002. I knew enough about it in 2002, but I have acquired much more "hands on" experience, since then. |
| It might not make any difference, or even be the wiser way, if I move to OKC. | I think the Octoplex is the better way. Word high in Japan is nobody wants to become a chair growth like my imaginary mother. Ah ha ha ha. |
| Do I want to be alone for a few years? Do I want to be surrounded by people immediately? I know the QG doesn't want any hanky panky with the K, any time soon, like centuries. I agree, it would certainly be too confusing. | I wonder which one of the bot people stole my cigarettes. When in doubt, blame that one guy that works in televison. |
| The "40 year plan" is a solid plan. However, it might be more sane to go to Amanda's. | Has Soren been outside lately, or is it too cold? As old as he is.... |
| It's probably, wait until the 11th of December to call and go with the 40 year plan. But it might be, go to Amanda's and hold off on the Octoplex for ten or fifteen years. Sure, we rushed the resurrection, but things typically aren't done such haste. |
Conditions have certainly improved with the functional realization that the police are actually inside my head. Also, it is easier to feel good enough about my self not to feel threatened by the cops. Being a police officer my self, my harmony with the police in my head is improving daily. I am still working on my confidence as an astral police officer. IT IS A NECESSARY FUNCTION OF GOD.
Since I washed and cleaned out this car, it's energy has improved. I have always liked this car, it is fun to drive and it looks nice.
 | The items in this picture are probably going to make it to the attic. I guess I am not worried about that any more. I might have rationalized a fear of using a ladder or I was just lazy. I know moving this energy around is useful for clearing up blockages, so I will have fun. I don't think I will sell the t.v. on E-bay. |
| It looks like it's time to take the cans to the recycling facility again. The other stuff looks fairly easy to clear up. It will be necessary to move the refrigerator out, in order to lower the ladder to the attic. |
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 | The Lumina shined up nice too. I wonder if I will be using her for going to Joplin for the Box Lunch Ending or just to drive over to the real trailer park for energy alignment and assessment? I am sure the right answer will be easy to hear. |
| I am not sure about the tag. I don't think there are mandatory licenses in the real world any more. My patience with this part of my energy which said there are has improved.
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I feel better today than I have ever. I don't have many more "heart burns" to go. I think I bought those at sim Dyess by walking around the base without shoes. It is probable that they come along to show me where the block is. It comes around in different ways, but it is a lot better. I have the crown of thorns too.
I guess that is it for this entry. Here is the TIAW video for 13 Nov, 2009.
Love and light,
Christopher B. Durbin
Universal Peace Network
I know the answer to that question. However, I do not know the answer to the question of whether I will be leaving soon or more like the 11th of December?
It looks like there are strong reasons to take my time getting out of here, while finishing Light Emerging. It still feels like I might explode if I don't leave soon, while not being able to leave. It might be smarter to let that pressure relax here, so I can leave.
There are several possible ways for me to go. I could leave soon and come back to Earth in a few months, or I could go directly to the trailer. I could leave and stay on WC for six years and then come back to Earth and build the Octoplex in Houston. It might be better just to drive the Octoplex around. I don't know.
Regardless, I really feel better and better every day. I am patiently waiting for the arc people to be filtered out. It is not really a painful process, but an uncomfortable process. So, it could be worse.
I guess it is awful that it looks like I don't have free will, since I have to wait for so many things to change in order to do what I want. This process is one I learned when I was little. It is just the same. As a grown up, however, it is maybe more complicated for some reason. Still yet, I know I do have free will, just have to work on things, or move things, in order to clear up a better sense of choice.
If the Octopus isn't real, instead of being a lawyer, how about going to the BBSH? Actually, I think it would be more me than law school. Nevertheless, I love law and feel I could do a lot of good in that field, though it would require some conformity. I feel the Octopus WOULD happen in 2011, if it were not already real.
Love and light,
Christopher B. Durbin
Universal Peace Network
Here is a possible schedule:
0700 - Up and weigh
0705 - Breakfast
0730 - Inner light meditation
0800 - Gazelle and light work out (push ups, sit ups, etc.)
0830 - Sword work
0900 - Turn on t.v. to CNN
1000 - Change channel to Wx channel
1100 - Change channel to CSPAN, alternate between House and Senate, House Monday, Senate Tuesday, etc.
1200 - Change channel to Animal Planet, eat lunch
1300 - Open channel until 1700, ESPN on Tuesday
1700 - Walk, alternate between track and around the block
1800 - TIAW
1900 - Feed the cat and dogs, scoop litter, eat dinner
2000- Alternate between reading Light Emerging, Monday Night Football, and a Movie. WF, Light Emerging, T,TH, SA, a movie
2100 - On Tuesday, Channel 14 news. Otherwise, Shower. Shower at 2130 on Tuesday
2200 - Wednesday, ch 16, Thursday, ch 7, Friday, ch 12
2230 - Bed, except on Friday and Saturday nights
I am not completely sure that it will work. It is yet another effort to get me on a track of some sort and it is the best one so far. It could possibly work.
 | Today, I thought about taking my gas powered Weed Eater to Ken’s Farm and Home to be repaired, they can probably order a trigger and get it going. It is a lot less discouraging trying to decide if it is possible to go to the real Ken’s Farm and Home. It would probably be best to cut this growth down and then dig up the roots that aren’t supposed to be there, and then plant new plants or flower. I have had difficulty deciding how to work on the yard here, due to who should be making these decisions at this house. Winter is coming up, so I probably won’t bother with the yard much more. |
| I am sure that the neighbors to the south of the house that I am currently living have the Octopus on their television. I hadn't thought that maybe the property line issue might be some how inaccurate as I see them and how they really are. I do trust I can clarify that question with time. |  |
 | The white rocks remind me of the white rocks that were in the front yard of 1105 6th NW, when I was growing up. My parents also planted some Yucca Plants in the front yard. The Bird Bath reminds me of the Bird Bath that Amanda and I got when we came to Miami, back in 1999 or so. The energy field concerning this area has some bumps in it but I know it is clearing up. |
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| I am still a little confused in regard to the existence of bot kids and real kids. I was sort of sure that all of the kids who showed up on Halloween were actually the arc bots that I am clearing out of my perception. I think Halloween is a little scarier than it used to be, but more fun. Still yet, safety is the priority. I see "Dale" in my energy as a sore area. |  |
 | I see the patio as somewhat of a challenge to find a time to sweep. It seems like something that should be done every night, this time of year. Perhaps I will find the time again soon. I am glad Cady is no longer in misery, but I would rather see Cali out there, instead of moping around the house. |
| That area grown up near the fence could certainly use some attention. Again, the whether I am supposed to be at this house or beating down the door at 1105 6th NW, until the bugs get out, is the reason I have ignored this area. The tomato plants need more attention than I think Imagimom might have thought she could give. I feel like a jerk for not being more attentive to those tomatoes. |  |
 | I don't know if it's good or bad that the summer flew by at a ridiculous rate. I did not get enough time at the pool. I have found it difficult to get that liner on the pool. I stretched the pool out by kicking on the edges. There are some leaves in the pool, it will be a lot worse in a few weeks. |
| Another area of the yard that looks awful. Maybe Doc John will come over and tend to it? Near the fence, on the North side, is where I broke the lawn mower. I wonder what is wrong with it? |  |
 | This picture reminds me of the Governement.
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| Can I, or should I, do it? Should I have breakfast at the table at 0705 every morning? It sounds so grown up, when I would rather be out drinking !!! What is the future of Government? |  |
 | The plaque on the wall is of interest. Managing my life and my imaginary mother's life is a challenge. I have no trouble fixing my self dinner and I think it is a good thing to do at 1910 every day. I would probably be better off eating lunch at 1200 too. I can't rely on Imagimom to cook. It is more important to focus on clearing away the arc, instead of making money selling arc people stuff. |
| A nice, and typical place for manifestations. How many real ghosts have ever been seen in such locations? The theromstat has a good vibe associated to it. Nevertheless, the electric bill is a matter which is in question. Does the Universal Peace Network pay the electric bill, in essence? |  |
 | This room always reminds me of the room at 1105 6th NW, in the south west corner. The "heat" on the electric bill is not nearly as much here as it was at 1105 6th NW. I don't know if that's because of the times or because of the location. |
| Is imagimom going to die before I get out of the arc? I hope not. I see her "health" as an opportunity to apply the principles I am learning in Light Emerging. I think her energy is getting better, instead of dying. Think of the energy field mapping device in Reiki and how the arc world is up to that level, and growing. |  |
 | Though there is a house cleaner, I am not sure the house is as clean as my mom would actually be content with. I don't seem to have the time to clean, but maybe I should believe the house keeper is actually cleaning properly? I think Imagimom would vanish before she would find the energy to regularly clean the house on her own.
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| I can tell Imagimom didn't really know how old these sofas were. I don't think she would allow those shedding, dirty pawed dogs on those if she did. The goblets that Dale bought are nice. |  |
 | Imagimom's sick sack is in the picture here. Once again, I hope to use the practical skills I am acquiring by reading Light Emerging to reduce the amount of time she spends tending her sick sack. Note that this sack was one from "the essence" of the hospital. |
| I pray for God's loving care too. As God, I think it is important to get clear on my higher purpose. There might be good reason to relax, but it is not easy. I don't know if we should go directly to the Octoplex or if I should go away for nine years.
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 | The energy surrounding the stuff in this picture is improving. At some point, I would love to find the time to move the stuff in the garage around. I don't think it's dangerous to put stuff in the attic. The USDA says the old hamburger isn't really fresh, but it isn't dangerous. |
Well, that's a walk through of 2205 Willow Lane, in my head. I hope the schedule works. It is vital that I get the two sides cleared up either way. I really think it is best to finish Light Emerging before I go away, if it is nine years away.
Sincerely,
Christopher B. Durbin
Universal Peace Network
Dear PIAT,
I am debating about whether it is better to get back to the Light Emerging at 8 and 8, and finish the book before I leave, see where I am on the 11th of November, or just blow it off. I enjoy reading it, and I also enjoy being at the transmissions at those times.
I seem to have ran into the bulk of my energy opposed to being awake at that time, unless I had been up all night. Nevertheless, I think it is possible to get things aligned in that direction again. It is clear that the exercise is helping me push away nonsense from the arc people. However, "up at seven, read at eight" might be more relaxing.
The consistency is always the fact the dogs and the cat have to eat soft food once a day. So, I do have some consistency in my life. I would like to see that happen at 7:00 P.M., each day. It really isn't a problem that my life seems to be based on a sense of obligation to something such as when the animals need to eat. It might disturb me that something related to my well being doesn't seem important enough to establish a routine.
My dinner or supper should fall between 7:00 P.M. and 8:00 P.M. I should read between 8:00 P.M. and 9:00 P.M. I should shower at 9:00 P.M. I was thinking it was important to see the 10:00 P.M. news, and aternating between the channels was providing an earlier bed time on Mondays, as Fox 14 was to fall on Monday night, each week.
The problem is concerning the two different times I could get out of bed, 4:30 A.M. or 6:30 A.M. Walking at 6:00 A.M. was going so well. Could that be changed to another time in the day, considering the 9:00 A.M. CNN and 10:00 Weather Channel rendevous'? Clearly this would be a lot easier if Imagimom wasn't stuck in my energy.
I was trying to see the world in the way that "if I wake up, without the alarm, it is meant to be. If not, then it was not". Of course, the world goes away when a person does this. I should really trust the alarm clock, it suggests that a person gets up and sustain a routine that will push the crud out of a persons life, so they can see reality more clearly. It is just such a foul temptress that keeps a person in bed all day. Maybe I can get up at 4:30 A.M. again, until I get through this book.
The idea is that six hours is plenty, even without a nap in the after noon, but I have that option as well. I would love to miss the 6:00 A.M. walk, and attribute it to the number of people who really aren't watching it on t.v., for whatever reasons, and sleep until noon. It doesn't feel all that bad to just relax and wait for the phone to clear up, it will. However, I wouldn't mind being awake more than asleep, or something.
Love and light,
Christopher B. Durbin
Apparently I am feeling better off of the train track. I am fine with that. I love the schedule I had in mind, but I know it is not always easy fitting an elephant into a shoe box. In the process of tuning into the whatever I am trying to tune into, it is complex "whipping the horse's eyes". I have successfully released all expectations. I trust I am on the right track and all will continue in the right direction. I kind of hope it lines back up with the program which has worked a time or two.
I am sure Octopus is real and the arc energy is clearing away so I can go to the bank and use the phone whenever I want. There used to be a distractive energy in my thought process which made it difficult to be clear about things which are "senseable". I am relaxing that, and I am sure it is relative to the beliefs surrounding intuition and clear sensory perception. Positive energy is flowing into the unstable areas, soothing the sore areas.
Apparently they cured cancer and I am still smoking like they haven't and I don't have enough money to smoke. I think I should change that. I know cancer is cured and I have plenty of money for cigarettes. Another thing, I have plenty of money to take two, three, five, fifty, or as many showers a day as I want without some nag telling me about some water shortage somewhere. Imagimom hasn't said anything about it, but I have to push that out of my way, or sit and whine about it. NO! NO! NO!, Just chill, it will clear up. Oh sure, just as soon as I push it out of my way. Regardless, I will keep motivating in that direction, I have plenty of money for water bills.
When I posted Earth Owns One and the other two, I really thought the Octopus was real, but I didn't understand why I was being held down. I am sure I am right, the Octopus is real. It was, and is, part of my job, to look very carefully at the "dry internet", in my head. I am resolving the telepathic digital issues very carefully and with meticulous order. Transforming thought form energy into computer essential energy doesn't give me a headache anymore and I am very sure that that is actually what I am doing.
A large problem I was dealing with is a time/necessity issue. I wanted to be the person associated to the "civilian" network of humanitarian network consolidation. The weakness in my energy with this has always been a sense of lacking and a neediness for money. As well as uncertainty of whether the UPN and EPN were already on the Internet. The strength, as usual, is the existence of the Universal Mother, I am sure she exists, lives on a planet other than Earth and has the Octopus. Clearing Mary out of this area is the complication. Of course, the presence, in the collective, of the "Nativity Family", is a boon instead of a burden.
The subject of this blog post is, is anxiety running my life? The answer is NO. I refuse to let anxiety run my life. However, anxiety has been a major factor keeping me from being able to feel like my self. Calming down is the process relative to clearing up the telephone and I am progressing beautifully. I will soon be calm enough to call, the essence surrounding me, or the energy in my field which is disrupted, is gradually stabilizing which will allow me to control the telephone, or be in harmony with it.
D2JRTH91 is an energy system. Should I be afraid to put that name on the Internet? I would be but I know there is a protective field established, in the collective consciousness, that keeps me and my identity safe. I don't really think a hacker would benefit in the least by the computers name. People just don't do that anymore any way. What fun is there in infiltrating someones computer? Looking for credit card numbers or bank account numbers and passwords or something?
Is D2JRTH91 it's own person, or is D2JRTH91 my computer?? We may never know, but it is assured that soon D2JRTH91, and I, will soon clear the dangerous arc energy out of our collective energy.
I am so excited that you (the real people) are there. I hope to clear the arc energy soon, so I can talk to you (the real people).
Love and light,
Christopher B. Durbin
Dear PIAT,
In theater, or public speaking, it is best to move past complex feelings. In the case of whether or not I am offending the arc people, I have been too nervous to know the answer or even how to move past. These feelings were complicated by a strong uncertainty about the existence of Octopus and a possibly negative interaction in forcing the arc people to cooperate. It has gotten a lot more fun at Facebook. Facebook has been a really assistive mechanism for soothing the strain on me to have positive interraction.
A very serious problem has been my feeling that I am hiding from someone. This matter is directly connected to the negative side of the timing issue I have with Amanda who hasn't seen Octopus and has kids. I can't breathe for some reason at this level, as if if trying to see the arc Amanda as the real takes me out of body into a very small world where there aren't oxygen atoms big enough for a real person. No wonder I feel COPD.
Pressuring my self to clear the phone every Friday is not really the reason I feel so much hell at this blog right now, it is the squeeze in my energy. If we decide to blend it out over the next year, it might be a lot easier to breathe. I don't know if it is better to leave the planet in a mental condition closer to one of someone who had left soon after 11 November, 2002. Duty directs me on this, and all matters.
I feel a lot better than I did when I wrote the previous post, which I lost. I trust a little more that I can and willl recover it. Writing this blog post is difficult, in the same sense that working out is difficult. Previously, I did not really understand that it would get easier with repitition. Just like the walking, it will get easier with repitition. I want to make an entry a day, even if I am still here after the 11th of November. I realize it would be more like most days, not every day.
Just a check on Http://www.UniversalPeaceNetwork.Org. I am kind of sure that this address is on the Internet? No! I am really sure! I am relaxing dense areas, and stiff areas, and pudgy areas that can't seem to relax enough to clear the density away. I believe Http://www.EarthPeaceNetwork.Org is also real and on the Internet. I am no longer living in the belief that the world with these two sites on the Internet is small and inside my head. I am sure the two sites mentioned in this paragraph are directly associated to real people, whereas "The Department of Homeland Security", http://www.dhs.gov/index.shtm, is not and has never been.
It seems absurd that I would not go and see the Universal Peace Network HQ, at the Professional Building. I am not sure it's there. I thought it was at a grocery store the first few weeks. I would love it if that building was suited for the HQ. I thought it was a sensitive matter transporting my self to my planet to off load the arc people who would be moved. However, it doesn't really work "that way". That fear is based in a concern for the emotional sensitivity of my arc self. The good news is, I am sure I am the only person whose arc person lives inside their body.
I am kind of sleepy right now, I could catch a nap, or I could push it today. It looks like the "On the 8's" could endure for at least the duration of Light Emerging. I am happy about that. It is clear that I have a ways to go to clear up the tension and pain and it could go one of four ways with Imom. I just need to keep exercising so I can feel healthier, that will get me to the telephone.
Love and light,
Christopher B. Durbin
It's a cliffhanger!!! I really don't know if Imagimom will go to a nursing home or if she will make it back to 2205 Willow Lane. I can see her thinking more along the lines of the knowledge of her real self. I know that is a good thing, but I would still like to move her to my planet for the proper observation, unless it is smarter for her to merge and dissolve, with her real self.
Really I am in suspense but it is exciting. I wrote a letter at 5:05 A.M. on Monday, 24 Aug, 2009. It is incomplete, but here it is in detail:
Monday Aug 24, 2009
I only want to talk to Amanda and Nicole and get away from the silly magick world.
Still yet, I don't know how much longer I'll be "under water", or hallucinating the Arc World.
I feel bad about my imaginary mother and I am hoping the whole situation will improve or clear up completely.
I believe the Octopus is real and is blending in. I believe the energy which had rendered me incapable of seeeing it, or reality clearly, is dissolving still.
I know my dad did not die and the perception in which he did, is not true reality. My mom and he still live at 1303 21st NE, Miami, Ok 74354.
The memories of the Cantwells living at 1303 21st NE, Miami, OK 74354 have never been anything but lucid dreaming.
Very often I feel like the arc world will never clear out of my perception and I will be stuck living this life, until I die.
I feel like I just want to call Amanda and Nicole and go to my own planet, kind of like Luke in Empire. I wonder if cooling out here until November is wiser?
It might be wiser to stay here until November. It also might be wiser to go to my house at 1812 Gatewood, either before or in November.
My haste and discomfort in general makes me think I want to call Amanda and Nicole asap and go to my own planet alone. My sense of duty toward the universal community makes me wonder if it is not better to spend a few more months on that handicap sticker problem, and gunk in the arc Internet?
Is it wiser to go to my house at 1812 Gatewood, or to my own planet alone?
We know it is important to work on our memory. For resurrectees, that is probably best without pressure. But for us, it is probably better with focus and intent. We would need to be at the Octoplex for a few hours a day, until Ninja School in 3 years.
I believe #2 is the best. There are numerous reasons why. Some of the reasons are related to stress relief. A very important reason is my fear of Imagimom running into my room to yell at or assault me.
There is no formal closing.
I am posting the letter to Sanaya, date unknown to me:
Dear Sanaya,
I just can't see the world the way I once did in childhood. Things like dental problems and other medically related points of view aren't the least bit realistic.
It seems to me light workers are indeed making a significant and noticeable difference in the world. I do not forsee any form of decline in the progression of humanity, toward light.
All those in my life who appear to have medical conditions are those who haven't studied writings on energy and light body. I believe in a unified stabilization, of all, in light.
I live in the northeast corner of Oklahoma, Miami, OK 74354. In a city of 17,000, I know of at least one other light worker, and another person who has recently been on CNN for work concerning the allowance of Internet useage for people in Iran who are deprived this privilege.
In my assessment of the social climate of the entire planet, I see the collective dynamic as having a sense of energetic polarity. I bleive the collective social climate is like a swimming pool. There are some bugs, but they can all be filtered out. The world contains only good people. Some people have bugs.
I am a firm supporter of the United Nations. I believe in 100% participation, by all nations, in the United Nations. As a light worker, I direct energy toward the positive higher ideals of the United Nations, such as world peace.
Back to the top. I posted that picture up there because I believe the medical world has complicated and simplified the human insides for long enough. Nevertheless, I am certain my congressman would not approve, but I believe the Octoplex is a fine idea, and probably the 29 year plan.
I may or may not record the TIAW, today, if I am even there, but if I, I will plant is just under this sentence.
Love and light,
Christopher B. Durbin
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